>I never learned how to form lasting bonds, so I go through many predictable cycles of having people and inevitably losing them.
I see. People are unreliable and fickle, and I almost feel like it's good to accept that. Something I work on, too.
There's the issue, though, of attachment theory, which is a big deal in child development circles. Basically it's the theory that if a child (or perhaps an adult) dosen't form secure relationships, there can be long term negative effects.
>I'm starting to see people more as information now, just NPCs with a back-story and not much else.
Well, that's a good frame of view for a scientist, at least. :)
>Acceptance at the basic level is just changing your view of things, no?
I would say it's habituating to the way your brain responds to something. For example, if you had to live in a room that was painted red and you hated red, acceptance would be learning to function in spite of the negative feeling you have toward living in a red room. For deep issues it can be a slow process -- aceptance can take years...
>Being alone can be quite taxing sometimes.
Yes, it's stress. For me it's mild -- I've never been so inept as to have no connection. My social connection just falls a bit short of what my brain wants, I guess.
>What do you enjoy about portrait photography?
I like working with people and trying to tell their story visually.
>Have you ever tried bird watching? I hear it can be a nice time.
Birds have never really excited me as much as mammals. I do photograph birds sometimes, though.
>Hm... How much do you think you value online relationships compared to physical relationships?
My habits cause me to be inclined toward online relationships, and they certainly have value. I must admit that even online, though, I struggle to connect to others. And at the back of my head, I worry that online connection alone can not solve my lonliness issue very well. (But I'm still trying...)
What about you?